I am now 5 months pregnant with mine and Shane’s first baby. We are so excited and so happy that this is happening, but this experience so far, for me especially, has been pretty wild and unexpected.
We went yesterday for our 20 week major scan and everything so far looks really good, the doctor was happy with what she saw. She said that the baby looked healthy and very well fed hahha, before she said that, she said I must’n take offence to that comment. I didn’t, I thought it was funny and so true, I don’t stop eating, luckily I’ve been craving cold fruit along with the mountains of bread. Bread, I never knew I would have such an undying love for it, but I do now, it’s like my best friend, especially if smeared in butter and Marmite.
But like I said, this pregnancy for me has been not only wonderful, but quite strange too. For about a month and half I had such bad ALL-day morning sickness, it just stayed with me from the second I woke up, to the moment I went to sleep. I literally stayed home for the entire time it lasted. It was such a strange time for me, because I was trying to be excited about the pregnancy (which I was), but I was also super sad and down a lot of the time. I didn’t feel like getting out of bed, sometimes I would stay there till 12 in the afternoon, I didn’t feel like washing my hair, I didn’t feel like talking to anyone, I just felt ill and tired all the time, it was crazy. It felt like Groundhog Day every single day, until I hit about 3 and half months, then it got slightly better, I mean I was leaving the house at least, but I was still getting a bout of morning sickness every single morning and sometimes in the evening. Only now at 5 months has it seemed to have calmed down quite a bit. I still have spells but they are quite spaced out and when we get to see baby on the monitor, like the other day I’m literally like the happiest person on the planet and I couldn’t care less if I was feeling sick or not. I suppose for first time moms, like myself, you have no idea what to expect, what pain is normal, what emotion is normal etc etc It’s a whole different world and you just have to see what each day brings.
I guess this post is just about 2 things for me – One is about all the women out there that deal or have dealt with probably exactly what I have just described – I was lucky in that I didn’t have to be at the shops all the time thanks to Shane (who has been so wonderful) and the great team that we have working for us. But to all those ladies who go through this and then head out to work every day with a brave face on, you guys are amazing and I take my hat off to you, I really really do…
And the second reason for this post, is just for me to document my time up to this point, sorry if I’ve bored any of you. Just wanted to write down what I was feeling because it was all so new to me and a bit confusing at times and maybe some of you can relate, but now, nothing is confusing about how I’m feeling. I’m happy and excited and a bit scared, obviously, but I can’t wait to meet our little girl and all her loveliness.
Thought I would include some of the pictures from our scan the other day. The first 2 are profile pics of her, the third one is her pulling a ‘rock and roll’ sign for her dad no doubt, definitely a Desmond and The Tutu fan and the 4th is of her little foot. She was all over the place when they were scanning her, hands and feet everywhere, it was so so cute.